There seems to be a hole in your net.....

I apologize for the gap in posting, life being what it is has kept me busy.  I did start two blogs last month but just didn't finish them. 

I remember back in my Christian days, when life turned sour I thought I only had one recourse, to get on my knees and pray.  I would spend, well let's be honest here, not hours on my knees, but maybe an hour or so in prayer begging for answers that in the back of mind I knew the answer to.  Yet I still had myself convinced that an easy solution would just magically fall from the sky and God would make everything alright.  There were people in the church I knew going through some very rough times and when I would offer my sympathies they would just smile this sappy, foolish grin and say "This won't matter in heaven".  And do little to nothing about their problems.  I had a friend who stayed with her physically, emotionally and verbally abusive husband because "God wasn't done with him" "God will fix him" "God will reward her faith".  And she had that same inane smile on her lips and vacant expression in her eyes.

If God could or would make people's lives better why doesn't he?  Why let a baby die because an abusive parent shook it to death?  Why let a little girl be raped and strangled to death if He is watching over us?  I know the answers a Christian is supposed to give to those questions. 

"It was His will."
"God needed an angel so He called them home."
"God's ways are not our ways".

The one that always, ALWAYS bothered me was "God's ways are not our ways".  Would YOU allow your child to molested and then murdered as a life lesson to someone else?  No normal, sane parent would.  So why even attempt to say that God will supply all your needs and God would never give you more than you can handle?  Its a fallacy, a fairy tale to think that prince charming is going to swoop out of nowhere and save you from being a slave. 

Let's face it, a lot of religion is just another form of willing slavery.  Your master says "I'll treat you well and take care of you as long as you obey me".  Is that not in fact, what "God will supply all your needs" means?  As long as you do as you are told, you will be taken care of and given great rewards when you're done with your labor.  Quite honestly it makes me sad to think of all the family time I could have  had with my son if I had not been so involved with church centered projects.  I missed out on a lot and I try to make up for it now.

Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able?
Then he is not omnipotent.
Is he able, but not willing?
Then he is malevolent.
Is he both able and willing?
Then whence cometh evil?
Is he neither able nor willing?
Then why call him God?
~Epicurus

This quote rings ever true.  If he can do great and wonderful things for *some* people, then why not all? 

I'm reminded of a conversation I had with one of my fellow snarky ladies, its like when there is a horrible plane crash and everyone dies except one person.  "Its a miracle!"  "God was their co-pilot!"  etc....

To f'ing bad about the sixty other people that died, I guess they were just SOL.  Maybe they didn't pray enough, maybe they didn't tithe enough or they just didn't have enough faith and so they weren't worth God's time and effort to save.

Your life is your own, take charge and live to the fullest.  Because God certainly isn't there with a safety net, even if He was, there seems to be some massive holes in it.